Last Week

I don't know what to post - I just haven't been feeling my usual chipper self.

I have to look for a new position because I resigned from the unit I went through residency on. It wasn't what I thought it would be. Even though I was miserable there and know this will be a change for the better, I still feel like I let myself down.

My husband knows how I was feeling and he supports me completely, which helps a whole lot. I saved almost all of the money I've made in the past few months, and paid off all of my old bills and credit cards (which didn't amount to much) already, so I'm sitting in a much better position to be unemployed for a few weeks than I was when I graduated.

I don't know what I'm looking for right now, and I guess that makes me saddest of all.

It's like I was taking a train ride to New York, and right at the very end of the trip there's a roadblock, and someone says "Well, stay here in Jersey - it's practically the same thing!" It isn't.